25 September 2017 @ 07:43 am
Once again, I didn't sign up for Remix. I did, however, pick up a pinch-hit at the end:
title: My God, It's Full Of Nerds (the It's Sci-Fi All The Way Down remix)
summary:Do not argue with nerds, for you are unschooled in knowledge and taste delicious with pedantry. (Or: "Steve Rogers and the Science-Fiction of the Twenty-First Century")
rating: G
characters/pairings: Steve Rogers, Maria Hill, (cameo Pepper and Tony)
tags: Humor, Geekery, Friendship, Fluff
notes: inspired by The Ultimate Question (a.k.a. Steve Really Needs New Friends) as a pinch-hit for [archiveofourown.org profile] LadyMerlin in the [community profile] remixrevival.
I'm pretty happy with this one.
 
 
24 September 2017 @ 04:13 pm
 
"Seriously the number 1 reason I don’t do anything social is ALWAYS Out of Spoons Error. Spending my break time interacting with coworkers I LIKE is still causing me to malfunction because for me a break has to be NO OTHER PEOPLE or I can’t recharge. So far I’m compensating (mostly by hiding at lunchtime) but it’s something to see an eye on going forward. I wish people understood having Limited Social Energy is NOT the same as being hostile or uninterested in building a relationship; it’s like having a teeny budget while hanging out with friend with Lots Of Money, I have to pick and choose what things to do with great care, or suffer, while they can do All The Things."
--[personal profile] alatefeline, hello again + many good thing
 
 
24 September 2017 @ 04:09 pm
 
Alex: "You could have told me!"
Evan: "I tried, but you were otherwise involved."
Alex: "That's no excuse! You should have made me listen to you."
Evan: "Obviously you've never tried to make you do anything!"

--Kristine Williams, Tools of Extinction
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Somehow in all of the excitement that has been our September I missed my C25k anniversary! It's been a year now since I've started running regularly. In the past 12 months I've run over 700km which is a wild number if you consider that before June 2016 the number of km I ran annually was a total of zero. Every year for my entire life - childhood dashing about and a few painful PE lessons excepted. And now it's hundreds and hundreds.

I mean. My daily average is 2km. Again - of running. Per. Day!

This totally merited a whole post of me kind of boggling at/feeling accomplished about this particular lifestyle change and achievement.

But today's run did not go as planned. I was on a pedestrian/cycle path, crossing a local green space when three young teen boys cycled towards me - rudely taking up almost all the path, forcing me to the very edge as they passed - when

SPLASH.

The shitty brats had thrown paint all over me. Fortunately nothing worse than paint - I can think of quite a few less pleasant options - but yeah. Bright neon pink paint on my face, neck, t-shirt, shorts, headphones and a bit on one of my shoes and in my hair. I was so shocked I fumbled getting my phone out and they were quite far away when I snapped a shot of them (but I do have one - and then I took one of my own paint-covered self).

I called the non-emergency police line, because this is Britain and I can do that without risking getting some kid shot. And it felt so good to report it and hear the lady I talked to call it ASSAULT and note down all the details so if this happens again there will be an incident report to link it to my case. I don't think anything is going to come of this, but I was offered victim support and asked if I wanted to follow up and generally got the impression the police agreed that this was Not OK and that I was right to have called them about it. It took the edge off my fury (I was so angry I was actually crying when I started the call) and by the time I made it home the report had been made and I could focus on getting sympathy from [personal profile] doctorskuld and wash the drying paint off.

Which it did, quite easily. The clothes are in the washer, but hopefully they'll be fine too. (Update: they're not fine. We're trying to find ways of getting the paint out of them, but...)

And I'm not angry anymore, but I know I'll feel uneasy the next time I run that particular stretch of path, and the next time teens - any teens - come biking towards me. Ugh.

But the worst part is that I was aiming at being at 55km for this month at the start of the week, and now I'm not. I had plans and goals and those kids just ruined it for absolutely no good reason except "lol lets throw paint at that woman". (There were plenty of other people out and about, and they only targeted me - I'm pretty sure because I'm a woman and slow and neither young nor athlete-lithe...)

Anyway my lovely wife has made portobello mushroom burgers for dinner and I am clean and warm and safe. And on Tuesday I'm making 55k for sure. ♥

Under the cut: me, splashed in paint. )
 
 
24 September 2017 @ 01:32 pm
 
Alex: “It's a nice ship, you know?"
Evan: "Yes, it is. And no, I don't think by wanting to use it you're forgetting or ignoring them or the fact that it was their ship. I think using it honors their memory more than letting it collect dust in the hold."
Alex: "You can read me like a book, can't you?"
Evan: "If you're a book I'd be interested in meeting the author.”

Alex: “You know, sometimes you make me want to beat my head with a stick."
Evan: "I never make you do anything. No Sha'erah makes a Keeper do anything."
Alex: "Ha! I guess that's just a matter of perception.”

Alex: “I suppose you think a ship named Defiant is fitting for me?"
Evan: "I can think of a few names that would be more appropriate, but I'm sure the military has restrictions about using certain words on their ships and uniforms.”

--Kristine Williams, Tools of Extinction
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24 September 2017 @ 08:42 am
My first romantic relationship was when I was 15.

I was a sophomore at an all-girls Catholic school, acting in my school's production of Agatha Christie's "And Then There Were None." Because it was an all-girls school, our director had adapted the script to make as many characters female as possible. Or, at least as possible as a Catholic imagination could manage in 1990. Only 4 boys' parts were left after the adaptation, and we acquired the boys from our brother school across the neighborhood. One of them became my literal favorite person. We talked *all the time.* Everyone else in the cast decided we were married. He introduced me to both REM and They Might Be Giants, which, if you know me, pretty much sums up the core of my musical DNA.

He was also, as he finally managed to figure out some time later, thoroughly gay.

When we were 15? This was not remotely a problem. There is a closeness that happens quickly when you are working on a performance. There is a level of trust that much be built up, and an intensity that can't really be simulated. We talked, we bantered, we hugged, we stood too close to each other. The whole time we considered ourselves "going out," (about 9 months) we saw each other outside of school functions and meeting up at the bus transfer our schools shared a total of maybe 3 times. That was fine. We talked on the phone almost every day.

And we made mixtapes.

If you were a teen in the '90s, you know already the power of mixtapes. But let me see if I can articulate it. Before iTunes, before Spotify, before Pandora, before fucking *Napster*, the only way the average kid had to create their own personal playlist was to record their songs of choice to a cassette tape. And the only really effective way to do this was to own a stereo with dual cassettes and manually hit record when the song you wanted began on one side, recording it to the blank tape on the other side. And you tried like hell to get the songs to blend smoothly, maybe rewinding a smidge when you got a couple notes of the next song accidentally recorded onto the blank.

What I'm saying is that it was a long, arduous process. It wasn't what we do now with today's playlists, adding a song with a click of a button, rearranging as we go. It was deliberate. It was thoughtful. If you weren't going to think it through, you weren't going to do it at all.

Every song meant something.

I mean, at least the way I did it. You couldn't make a mixtape without also listening to the song as you recorded it. I think at some point, the technology existed to speed up the recorded song as it was taped by like 2X or 5X, but why bother? Listening to each song as you placed it in its order like a string of beads that you would then present to your love with a smile? The entire fucking point.

I still have the tape John made me, somewhere. The same way I have the notes he wrote me, the card attached the to the rose he gave me, and the pictures of us at one school dance and the trip to the local amusement park that both our schools went to on the same day at the end of the year.

That tape introduced me to Erasure, and Tori Amos (so much makes sense in retrospect, you guys. I digress.)

All of this is to say that the narrative trope of pining characters speaking to each other through songs? Touches me at a deep, deep level. I like songfic a lot in general, but when it's done exceptionally well? I fall, hard.

This is all to say that right now I am deeply in love with Setting Sun, by LittleLostStar.

But let me back up for a minute.

When I got super fannish about Yuri On Ice!!!, I started by reading the big fandom hits, like you do. Then I got obsessed for Otayuri, and found not only fic, but playlists based on that ship, and I poked through them, found my favorites, curated my own playlist out of my individual favorite songs on different playlists, etc. Like you do.

A lot of the stuff that would pop up on Otayuri playlists was appropriate, but also obvious. Like, it started to feel like most of it was just made up of whatever songs were already popular right now--the stuff that shows up on Pandora's Teen Radio station all the time. I enjoyed it, and I started writing some songfic for them based on the ones I thought *really* fit best (which I should totally finish one of these days, whatever), but I also got occasionally annoyed at how US-centric the song choices always were. But my critique/celebration of cultural translation in YOI is an entirely SEPARATE POST.

The thing that is special about Setting Sun isn't just that it's the story of Yuuri and Victor literally speaking to each other only through song lyrics, and each song has very pointed and specific meaning (I mean, that's obviously A LOT of what I love about it, see above re: mixtapes), but it's also a playlist with a narrative attached. It's not a pile of songs with a certain aesthetic (which the Otayuri playlists generally are, and that is fine and good and I enjoy the thing). I've re-read Setting Sun several times, and listened to the playlist at the same time every time so that now I can just listen to the playlist and relive the story, deep in my feelings. And that is also what listening to a mixtape was like. You relive the feelings that a person makes you feel, anytime you want, by listening to the music they send you.

Not all of the songs in Setting Sun are explicitly romantic. A ton of them are sassy. Some of them are pissed off. A bunch of them express Yuuri's anxiety, or Victor's depression. And then a bunch of them are just pure sex. And it's alllllll good. The narrative, and the songs that go with it, earn the sexy songs, which you know makes them that much better.

And the songs themselves? Some of them I already knew (Savage Garden, Fiona Apple, natch). Some of them were new songs from bands I knew but hadn't followed closely in a while (Pompeii, Tegan and Sara, Lucius). There's not as much European or International pop as I'd realistically expect from Victor and Yuuri, but there's enough, and at least not every song is in English (Latin counts, okay?) And enough of the music is both new to me and also deeply moving and very good that I've also just started diving into the back catalog of some of these new-to-me artists.

And I've started just sharing individual new fave songs with people (hi [personal profile] kass!) and had to explain that, yeah, I got this from a YOI fic.

It doesn't matter how you feel about Yuri On Ice!!! Seriously, listen to this song.
This means you, [personal profile] heresluck.

For the past year, I've been listening to music more and NPR and podcasts less. It was partly because I wasn't commuting an hour anymore (more like 2 minutes, seriously) and partly because I just desperately need to not listen to the news and to, just, stick an IV of joy into my veins. YOI was part of that IV of joy, but now the music I've been acquiring because of YOI has also taken up this job, and it's much more portable. I bought a bluetooth shower speaker so I can start every day with the right mood. I wear headphones at my desk while I compose assignments. I wear headphones at home while I read fic on my laptop in the living room and the kids watch Dan and Phil on Youtube, or Jay watches trail runners. And I always, always listen to playlists in the car.

It isn't always Setting Sun, but it often is. And sometimes it's the offshoot playlist I made of just the fuck jams. Because sometimes you don't need the full narrative. Especially if you've already internalized it.

Playing those on my way to and from UMass to submit my final PhD paperwork worked pretty well, I'll tell you what.

This is all to say that, if you like Yuri on Ice!!! OR mixtapes, or just great music, maybe check out some combination of the fic and the playlist. I bet you'd be glad you did.

I can't remember, [personal profile] sanj, if I dropped this one into my stream-of-consciousness-on-hangouts-reclist for you, but even if I already have, consider this a bump up to the top of the reclist.

(Oh, also. It's still a WIP, and it updates slowly, but it's canon-parallel, and already over 80K, and the author is still clearly working. And even if it ends now, it's thoroughly satisfying at this point, so no worries.)
 
 
Current Mood: chipper
 
 
 
Alex: “You know what I think it is? I think we got off balance somewhere down the line. I think you should just go ahead and hit me.”
Evan: "What?"
Alex: “Yeah, that's it. I think if you go ahead and hit me, knock some sense around in there, maybe we'll start making sense."
Evan: "You're being ridiculous."
Alex: "It couldn't hurt, figuratively speaking."
Evan: "You're assuming there's sense in there to knock into place."
Alex: "Yeah, I guess you're right.”

--Kristine Williams, Madness
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22 September 2017 @ 09:05 pm
I didn't remember this remark at all.

Alex: “I just never cared much for things."
Evan: "I know. And it shows. I think these rich people, some of them anyway, find it intriguing."
Alex: "Most of them find it annoying. I know my mother always did."
Evan: "I think it's honest."
Alex: "Yeah?"
Evan: "At least you never pretend. I never realized how much difference that could make. I'd go out with you.”

...Really! Under what circumstances, I wonder?
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22 September 2017 @ 07:51 pm
 
I was updating Mint today. When I got back to the beginning of the year and saw the garage bill I was like, “What on Earth happened to my car in January?! ...Oh, right."

By the time I had listed all desired car repairs to my (awesome) mechanic, I had to finish with, "Oh, and the windshield is cracked all the way across; sorry about that. It's getting replaced tomorrow." He was like, "Wow, I hope everyone's okay." I just looked at him for a second before I realized he must think I'd been in an accident. "Oh," I said, "Yeah, it's fine. It happened while the car was parked in the driveway."
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22 September 2017 @ 07:38 pm
Alex: “We should eat something. What do you feel like?"
Evan: "I... Whatever you want is fine with me."
Alex: "Well, what I want is for you to pick a place."
Evan: "Did you have anything specific in mind?"
Alex: "No. I want you to pick something you want. It's not rocket science, Evan. You do it all the time anyway."
Evan: "What do you mean by that?"
Alex: "You're always making the decision what to eat and when."
Evan: "That's because you get so busy you forget to take care of yourself. Someone has to."
Alex: "So you make decisions all the time. You're only getting angry now because I told you I wanted you to pick something you want, instead of something you think I want."
Evan: "I'm not angry. I just don't see the need to make such a distinction. If you want me to find a place for us to eat, that's fine. Why do you have to make a point about whether or not I want the same thing?"
Alex: "You know, you are the hardest person to be nice to sometimes."

--Kristine Williams, Madness
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22 September 2017 @ 09:44 am
I have my hockey presentation night tonight, but due to a blood test, I can't eat anything and shouldn't drink anything but water after 10pm. Which is not entirely a bad thing because I don't actually feel like socialising tonight. Set INTROVERSION to ON.

I want to go home tonight and write; and then tomorrow I want to do ALL THE PLANTING AND GARDENING.
 
 
21 September 2017 @ 11:16 pm
 
Alex: “You owned a Sha'erah, according to Miranda."
Paulson: "Well, I... I suppose."
Alex: "You suppose? How do you own someone and not quite recall exactly? Did you, or didn't you?”

--Kristine Williams, Madness
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21 September 2017 @ 09:51 pm
Dear Christmas Bale,

This is AR, aka Who Shot AR (akerwis) on the AO3.

IDK about you, but man, Yuletide sneaked up on me this year. But I'm excited to be here, and I'm excited for both of us to have a great season! I've provided deets below for you, both on my general interests and my fandom-specific ones, but I want you to know that the number-one thing I want most is for you to have a fun time writing a story. This letter exists as some quietly excited ideas for you, but your own excitement and creativity are what make Yuletide wonderful, and I trust you to use this nonsense here as much or as little as you'd like. Please follow your heart where it takes you.

So, the general stuff:

Yes, please: All tenses and POVs, afterlife stories, arguments and apologies, bittersweet stories, character deaths, children, clothing descriptions, complicated relationships, confessions of love, diary fiction, domesticity, epistolary fiction, fairy tales, fairy tale retellings, family stories, femslash, flowers, fluff, food descriptions, friendship, gen, ghosts, grief, hand-holding, happily ever afters, haunted houses, het, holiday stories, Hollywood amnesia, hopeful endings, huddling for warmth, magic in the real world, mentorship, one-sided crushes, parenthood, pastiche, period settings, poetry, popular music, pregnancy, realistic fiction, recovery from failure, religious themes, sad but appropriate to the rest of the story endings, sensory details, snowstorms, sweet stories, this Venn diagram, traditions, tragedies, unusual formats, wingfic, zithers. :)

No, thank you: Alien abductions or grey alien types, asexual headcanon, autism headcanon, cats suffering even mild inconvenience (I can handle all other animals being in danger / dying / getting dinner two minutes late, but I'm really sensitive about cats), issue fic, poly shipping, religious bashing, storylines ripped from current US political headlines, trans headcanon, unrelenting cynicism

Here are my old letters, if those might help you. Please forgive any copy-pasting I've done from year to year--I'm afraid I get lazy at times!

-Yuletide 2016
-Yuletide 2015
-Yuletide 2014
-Yuletide 2013
-Yuletide 2012
-Yuletide 2011
-Yuletide 2010
-Yuletide 2009

And this is my general Yuletide tag, which might be of interest to you but might also just be kind of nonsense-y.

Nota bene: While there might be some variance in the length of my tl;dr under each request, please be assured that I want all these requests with equal fervor. Some of my requests are less wide-open than others, or involve significantly less canon, so they take fewer words to explain. ♥ If, in any of these situations, you feel like I haven't given you enough to work with, please reach out to me so I can type some more excited nonsense to you!



the ramsay scallop; elenor of ramsay, thomas of thornham )

doctrine of labyrinths; methony feucoronne )

kavclay: rosa saks, thomas kavalier )

uncanny x-force: evan sabahnur, fantomex )

all new x-men: evan sabahnur )

That's everything I've got for this year. I hope this was a manageable read for you, and again, please don't stress the details. I have faith that you'll come up with something marvelous. Please feel free to reach out through the mods if you have any questions for me--or, if you need an answer on the double, please feel free to comment anon here on my letter. I'm not bothered either way.

Thank you for your kindness and generosity, and I hope the end of your year is a pleasant one. You have all my best wishes as we jump into this fest together.

Yours,
Who Shot AR (akerwis)
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21 September 2017 @ 09:56 pm
Did a round of donations tonight. So much going on, but hopefully little bits can help. Skuld's done her 5 Calls once this week, and I'm trying to cheerlead/threaten her to do another round.

It feels really Peak 2017 that it's difficult to write about anything in my own life without prefacing it with the above... Things are pretty terrible, and I feel vaguely guilty for having good news?

But - I have good news:
Skuld's Swedish residency permit was approved!!!

What this means is: she is allowed to move to Sweden! And live there permanently! (And then after three years she can apply for citizenship!!) And it only took... a year and two months and a couple of weeks?

More good news:
I found an airline that will fly our cats out of Britain in the cabin rather than the hold!! The reason I missed it last time I did research was that they have no direct flights (boo), but it's a reasonably fast 4 hours airport to airport and it means we won't have to entrust the kitties to strangers and have them fly in the hold (I know people who've had pets "lost" from the hold so THANK GOODNESS) and they can come with us and we can get them all moved within a day!

And this means that we actually have a timeline. This is actually happening. We're getting out of Brexit land and moving to Sweden with our cats and starting exciting new jobs - all before the year is out.

I think it'll go like this )
 
 
21 September 2017 @ 08:32 pm
One assignment, one pinch-hit.

The recip for my assignment hasn't responded to any of her recent gifts, either comment or kudos, so while I think it's kind of rude not to say thank you, at least it's not personal.
Title: as the wyrm turns
Fandom
: Merlin
Characters: Merlin, Gwen
Relationships: Merlin & Gwen
Rating: G
Summary: Magic had laws. His mother had been a lecturer of physics at Oxford for years before her sciatica made the constant standing an agony. Hunith had been the one to teach Merlin that all energy came from somewhere, that there was nothing new under the sun, and that every action had an equal and opposite reaction. She’d also been the one to observe that her son’s abilities and gifts followed those rules...most of the time.
I actually wanted to write a whole lot more to this - Arthur and Morgana and Merlin and Gwen all sitting down to dinner and having a conversation about magic and what it means in the world...

My second genex was a PH I picked up because I liked the recip, and because I could. It's not as brilliant as I'd envisioned it in my head (sometimes your brain does this, you know? And then it's not quite as magnificent as you thought it would be).
Title: stars of hope in dark despair
Fandom
: Rogue One
Characters: Chirrut Îmwe, Baze Malbus, Luke Skywalker
Relationships: Chirrut Îmwe & Luke Skywalker, Chirrut Îmwe/Baze Malbus (background)
Rating: G
Summary: There’s no palm trees, no sand, no watery inlets, no tower – not anymore. Yet Chirrut knows exactly where he is. He can feel it – hope and success in the midst of death and destruction – that this was both the ending and the beginning, like the tale of an ancient snake who endlessly swallowed its tail to represent time unending...
I've had an idea for the story from Luke's POV for some time, and after writing this, I have ides for more Chirrut-and-Baze backstory, but the issue of time and hijacked brain is big right now...

And a recent Captain Hill snippet:
Title: Office Gossip
Fandom
: MCU
Characters: Steve Rogers, Cameron Klein
Relationships: Maria Hill/Steve Rogers
Rating: PG
Summary: “So, I heard that Commander Hill is seeing someone.”

Steve looks sharply up from the missions Maria gave him to sign off. Then he remembers that the person Maria is seeing is him.
This was a snippet that sprang from another fic I wrote a while back - 'go down with your shield or come back upon it' - which featured Steve and Maria negotiating their relationship.

This one was...kind of fun. And silly. But fun, too.
 
 
21 September 2017 @ 08:46 am
It’s kind of nice to post a humourous Captain Hill ficlet I dug up off the HD last night, forget about it, and then only remember this morning when looking at my works page to discover it has 180 hits, 40 kudos, and 4 comments already.

I am starting to think that the Marriage Equality survey here in Australia will prove to be Australian Evangelicals’ ‘Trump’ moment. The ‘no’ side will win by a narrow margin, but it will be because half the people didn’t respond to the survey, and in the process, the most vicious ‘no’ responders (the 'loud and proud no' side) will have burned bridges beyond repairing for a generation already on the verge of asking, “Where is your God of mercy? We see none of His qualities in you.”

*grieves*

How I know I’m losing weight: my bra cups suddenly don’t fit my breasts. Which makes me feel like I’m walking around with my tits hanging out, never mind that I have two or three layers of clothing over the top.

Tonight, I have a quiet night. I don't even have to cook dinner; I prepped a lamb shoulder last night and stuck it in the slow-cooker this morning. I just have to get the sister to slice the potatoes and toss them in around midday...
 
 
For those of you who don't know, the Barna research group is a group that focuses on researching religious trends in America.  Although they are very DEFINITELY Christian and doing this for a Christian audience, they are also quite firm in their belief that in order to make good choices people need good, reliable information to base it on.  So they're pretty good about being as fair and accurate as they can in their research practices.

Their newest finding?  That in the last year, public opinion in America has swung quite dramatically in favor of immigration, diversity, and refugees, with most population segments adding at least 10% to their approval.  And practicing Christians who believe the US should welcome refugees more than doubled between 2016 and 2017, which is why there are currently more religious leaders across the board speaking to refugee and immigration issues.  (Evangelicals are the lone holdouts, surprise, surprise.)  For example, the Christian community is pretty much united in opposition to ending or limiting the DREAM program.  Even the Evangelicals agree there.

Unfortunately, the shift doesn't seem to be from racists, nationalists, and other right-wingers changing their minds.  Where the shift seems to be coming from is the people who were undecided a year ago moving towards open-mindedness, tolerance, and compassion.  So it's not that the whole country is moving towards tolerance, it's that the people in the middle are moving leftward on this issue.  Which is good, don't get me wrong!  It just means we've got our work cut out for us to reach out to the Evangelicals and the FOX newsers and all and help them see things in a different light.

(Obviously I'm not talking to people who aren't safe or wouldn't be safe if they tried to reach out, whether psychologically or physically.
 
 
20 September 2017 @ 10:52 pm
ah  
So my Genex recip is entirely a non-commenter. That makes it better, at least.